This post is part of the Insecure Writer’s Support Group blog hop. The first Wednesday of every month is Insecure Writer’s Support Group day. Post your thoughts on your own blog. Talk about your doubts and the fears you have conquered. Discuss your struggles and triumphs. Offer a word of encouragement for others who are struggling. The awesome co-hosts for the April 4 posting of the IWSG are Olga Godim, Chemist Ken, Renee Scattergood, and Tamara Narayan!
Spring is finally in the air! Our snow has given way to rain, which to me is much better–and also means the sunshine is coming up behind it, hopefully. I’m obsessed with decorating and I can’t wait to make my balcony all cute for spring. I will have to share some pictures when I get it done.
This month my insecurity is what it always seems to be: I don’t feel like I’m doing enough, fast enough. I have a new book coming out next week! And that’s awesome. But I’m chewing my nails about what comes after it…even though I already have the next book in the series written, I’m just working on editing it right now. But then I’m like what about after THAT? I gotta start getting the NEXT book written! The truth is I actually have THREE books fully written right now (not in the same series) in various stages of revision/editing. Surely that should be enough to calm my writer anxiety, right???
Nope. I’m still fretting over what comes next, what will I write next, how will I keep the ball rolling? I exhaust myself like this, honestly. I’ve decided with the turn of the season, I’m going to try to make a turn in how much I beat myself up and whip myself into further work when I’ve already got plenty on my plate–time to dial it back! I’m not sure what on earth I’m so anxious about, or exactly what number of finished books is supposed to be “enough,” I’m just obsessive, and I already suffer mental health-wise with anxiety, so I’m sure it all stems from that.
Spring is time to BREATHE, and I’m going to try to.
April 4 question – When your writing life is a bit cloudy or filled with rain, what do you do to dig down and keep on writing?
Honestly, when I don’t want to write but I need to write–I just have to make myself do it. It sucks at first, and I whine and balk, but once I get into it, I really get into it and then when I’m finished, I feel really good about having done it. Sometimes it’s a matter of just grumbling and pushing ahead–like most work!
Is your spring off to a good start? Did you have a good Easter?