Taking A Breath

This post is part of the Insecure Writer’s Support Group blog hop. The first Wednesday of every month is Insecure Writer’s Support Group day. Post your thoughts on your own blog. Talk about your doubts and the fears you have conquered. Discuss your struggles and triumphs. Offer a word of encouragement for others who are struggling. The awesome co-hosts for the April 4 posting of the IWSG are Olga Godim, Chemist Ken, Renee Scattergood, and Tamara Narayan!

Spring is finally in the air! Our snow has given way to rain, which to me is much better–and also means the sunshine is coming up behind it, hopefully. I’m obsessed with decorating and I can’t wait to make my balcony all cute for spring. I will have to share some pictures when I get it done.

This month my insecurity is what it always seems to be: I don’t feel like I’m doing enough, fast enough. I have a new book coming out next week! And that’s awesome. But I’m chewing my nails about what comes after it…even though I already have the next book in the series written, I’m just working on editing it right now. But then I’m like what about after THAT? I gotta start getting the NEXT book written! The truth is I actually have THREE books fully written right now (not in the same series) in various stages of revision/editing. Surely that should be enough to calm my writer anxiety, right???

Nope. I’m still fretting over what comes next, what will I write next, how will I keep the ball rolling? I exhaust myself like this, honestly. I’ve decided with the turn of the season, I’m going to try to make a turn in how much I beat myself up and whip myself into further work when I’ve already got plenty on my plate–time to dial it back! I’m not sure what on earth I’m so anxious about, or exactly what number of finished books is supposed to be “enough,” I’m just obsessive, and I already suffer mental health-wise with anxiety, so I’m sure it all stems from that.

Spring is time to BREATHE, and I’m going to try to.

April 4 question – When your writing life is a bit cloudy or filled with rain, what do you do to dig down and keep on writing?

Honestly, when I don’t want to write but I need to write–I just have to make myself do it. It sucks at first, and I whine and balk, but once I get into it, I really get into it and then when I’m finished, I feel really good about having done it. Sometimes it’s a matter of just grumbling and pushing ahead–like most work!

Is your spring off to a good start? Did you have a good Easter?

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  1. I think it’s impressive that you are so driven. Feel free to send some of that drive my way. Easter was pretty nice. I did the traditional plastic-eggs-filled-with-treats-hide-and-find with my youngest. My teenager dragged herself out of bed around 1 p.m., but the poor thing had a cold/fever. Which she gave to me. Oh, well. At least we all have a week at home to mend.

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  2. You have so much done already. Take a breather. Stop worrying and pat yourself on your head. Say: Megan, you have done well so far. And reward yourself with chocolate. If you’re allergic to chocolate, like me, maybe sushi would work as well. 🙂
    Seriously, you’ve done much and it might be time to take a break. New writing will come when it does. You can’t hurry a muse, so no point in worrying either.

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  3. Please send spring my way. My mom is moving to Michigan from Florida at the end of April, and she’s already said that she won’t leave her independent living facility when it’s cold. Good luck with your book release.

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  4. Three books finished, but not yet published? Makes me feel like a slacker. I’m pretty sure you’re definitely doing enough. Be sure to include breaks in your writing time.

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    1. No way, you’re not a slacker! No good comparing ourselves to each other. As you can see, even doing as much as I do I’m not satisfied! It’s that old writer anxiety that never goes away.

      Thanks for stopping by!

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  5. There always seems to be something else I should be doing, even when things are in actual real reality going just fine. Boy do I know that feeling. It’s comforting to know you’re fighting that hydra back alongside me, which is what the IWSG is all about!

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    1. I’m so glad to hear I’m not the only one who deals with this! That’s definitely why I love this group. “Fighting back the hydra” is a great way to describe it. I also like something Anne Lamott said (though it was about trying to finish a book, specifically) that it’s like “trying to put an octopus to bed.” You just get one tentacle tucked in when another one pops out!

      Thank you for stopping by!

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  6. Butt in chair is the only way to go. My favorite quote from Stephen King, ““Amateurs sit and wait for inspiration, the rest of us just get up and go to work.” Your productivity is awesome – you’re entitled to a breather.

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  7. I can’t wait to see your balcony pictures! Spring seems to be being somewhere else in the Midwest and I’m dying to feel it too. I love your end thoughts. It is a fight at first to get going but once we start it’s painful to stop 🙂 Happy IWSG day 🙂

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  8. “I don’t feel like I’m doing enough, fast enough.” I totally get that. Though I finish everything on deadline, I’m sure I could’ve done more if I could only have written and edited a little faster… A little unhealthy, perhaps, but it’s what pushes me to work harder on those days where it just seems that no writing is going to happen.
    Great post 🙂 Good luck with your upcoming book!

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