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I Hate Writing (Today)

This post is part of the Insecure Writer’s Support Group blog hop. The first Wednesday of every month is Insecure Writer’s Support Group day. Post your thoughts on your own blog. Talk about your doubts and the fears you have conquered. Discuss your struggles and triumphs. Offer a word of encouragement for others who are struggling. The awesome co-hosts for the February 1 posting of the IWSG will be Misha Gericke, LK Hill, Juneta Key, Christy and Joylene Butler!

My insecurity this month is the fact that right now I feel like The Little Engine That Can’t. Or more like, The Little Engine That Doesn’t Want To And Every Day I Don’t Do It The Mounting Ennui Increases And Threatens To Smother Me.

It’s one of those baffling things about being a writer: I have ideas, I have plans for stories, I even have the time to write them, and when I get to the keyboard to actually do the work, bleeeehhhhhh. Why do you do this to me, brain? Do you think this is funny?

It’s not that I’m blocked, not really, the ideas are there. I just don’t feel like writing. I know this happens from time to time, and it’s happened to me in the past, and unfortunately I know there’s only one solution. The way to get back to writing is to write. Do it. Then do it some more. And pretty soon the rust falls off and you’re back to being a well-oiled word-churning machine. But ugh, getting there. It’s hard, and it sucks. I stare at the page and I’d rather be doing anything else in the world, like cleaning the toilet or shoveling snow off all the sidewalks in my entire apartment complex.

Why do we sometimes hate writing? I don’t want to break up, I just…need some space.

February 1 Question: How has being a writer changed your experience as a reader?

It’s made it worse, truth be told. Now when I read, I catch every typo, every instance of weird grammar, every inconsistency, every place where the plot is tied together with thin strings that are threatening to snap. Most of the time I just see the framework instead of the magic. I wonder if architects look at every building and only see how it was put together and what’s wrong with it?

On the other hand, there’s some truly awful examples of writing out there that have been hugely successful, so it gives me hope for my own work. It reminds me nothing has to be perfect to be great.

What are your insecurities today?

Megan Morgan View All

Urban fantasy and paranormal romance author.

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  1. I usually end up hating writing when I’m doing too much ghostwriting or the ‘work’ type writing when I have a story of my own that I desperately want to get out.
    When I read I feel the same way. I try so hard not to be so critical but its hard. But every now and then when I read something really good, its amazing.

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  2. I understand your pain. I’ve been there before where I’ll go long stretches without writing anything. Other times it’s not as bad and it’ll just be a day or two. One thing that’s helping me so far is a group I joined called the 365 club. The whole point is to just build a habit of writing. Not large word counts, just a little everyday. The goal, at least 100 words a day. I find a way to squeeze in at least that 100 even on days I don’t want to write simply because I don’t want to put down a zero on the tracking sheet. Gotta find motivation where I can. 🙂 Start small and build from there. Good luck.

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  3. Hi Megan. I have recently been in the same “bleh” state. What helped me were goals, enrolling in online writing workshops and also working my writing partner on flash fiction using prompts from Pinterest. It was really great! I could finish something fast and share it with her without feeling like it had to be a huge manuscript in progress. And also too, I do see errors as I read. Especially when they are my own weaknesses. But that’s ok. I find great books too.

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  4. I do understand. I find myself doing the same thing when I read. Instead of getting caught up in the story, I’m obsessing over plot or theme or “wow this is bad how did it get published?” That sort of thing. I want a switch that will let me turn off the writer and turn on the reader.

    And I do hate writing sometimes. Like you, I have buckets of ideas, not as much time, but when I do have the time I find other things to do instead of writing. And sometimes you do need some space. One of the beat things I did for my writing last year was take a three month hiatus from it. And when I returned (actually, it returned to me) I got a great novel idea, ideas to fix an old novel draft, and a short story that’s soon to be published. Taking a break might be the best thing for you.

    Best of luck,
    Jen

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    • I’ve done that in the past too, ‘gave up’ on writing for a while and let it come back to me. It always does, like a dog! I guess we’ll never be free of it, huh? That’s a good thing though. Deep in my heart I love writing, I’m just a little mad at it right now.

      Thanks for stopping by!

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  5. Hi Morgan – never been here before but I sure like what you wrote. For me, the experience you are talking about where you simply don’t feel like writing is akin to what they call transition in the labour process. During that time you feel like pushing, you are highly irritated, but you aren’t to push. I think it is extremely important during this period to NOT write. You heard me. Don’t write – or don’t write on the ms you are currently working on. Write your blog, your morning pages, a letter to your great-aunt, but leave your ms sit for a bit. It’s alright. In fact it IS writing. Or an important part of the process. Weird but I believe true. Seems strange to tell you who has many books published – when I have only poems and plays that have made it out of my desk drawer. But still – I think I’m right. Maybe you are gestating a new way to write. Maybe this will be the novel that takes you into a new stratosphere. Who knows. Don’t push that baby right now. Let it get ready.

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  6. I love this >> “Most of the time I just see the framework instead of the magic.” In some ways, reading has become a lot less enjoyable since I started writing. I see more of what’s hidden behind the curtain and sometimes forget to get wrapped up in the story.

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