Getting Up The Hill

This post is part of the Insecure Writer’s Support Group blog hop. The first Wednesday of every month is Insecure Writer’s Support Group day. Post your thoughts on your own blog. Talk about your doubts and the fears you have conquered. Discuss your struggles and triumphs. Offer a word of encouragement for others who are struggling. The awesome co-hosts for the December 7 posting of the IWSG will be Jennifer Hawes, Jen Chandler, Nick Wilford, Juneta Key, JH Moncrieff, Diane Burton, and MJ Fifield!

My insecurity this month revolves around the fact that I’m feeling a little drained right now. Okay, a lot drained. I recently got a promotion at work and the adjustment has taken a lot of my energy and caused a shift of focus. Christmas is also coming and all the buzz surrounding that. As a result, I’m finding it hard to concentrate. I’m not working on writing much, struggling to keep my blog up, and generally just feeling drained and zoned out when I sit down at the computer (so then I screw around online instead of doing work).

I know all writers go through this from time to time, when life climbs on your back and slows you down. I’m hoping as things even out at work and the holidays pass, I’ll get the spark again and be able to concentrate. The funny part is, it’s a vicious cycle: the less I write, the worse I feel, and then the more drained I am. I have to break it!

December 7th Question: In terms of your writing career, where do you see yourself five years from now, and what’s your plan to get there?

My ultimate ‘writing plan’ has always been to be a career writer. That is, I want to make a living off writing and not have a day job. Far-fetched? Definitely. Improbable? Maybe. Impossible? Only if I don’t do anything to reach that goal. I know it’s something that will take a lot of hard work and needs a little bit of luck thrown in as well.

In five years I hope to at least be paying some of the bills with writing, even if I’m not making a total living off it. How do I plan to do it? The only way an author can make a living off writing: write, publish, repeat. Unless I happen to land a bestseller, it will take lots of work and lots of available work to make a living. Though even if I do magically hit it big, I’ll keep writing more books because–I love writing!

My plan is to do a job I love, which is writing, and live comfortably on it. But it’s going to be a long, hard, sometimes uncomfortable road getting there. I think that’s true of a lot of professions, though. No one becomes a doctor or lawyer overnight, either.

This plan seems incongruent with my insecurities this month, doesn’t it? I guess that’s a sign for me!

How are you feeling this month? Have you ever been drained and unfocused?

38 comments

  1. Sounds a lot like my own plan. Though I always wonder how realistic this is…
    Honestly, I think it’s a lot more realistic for you than for me 😉

    And hey! Since I’m here, let’s start with a fantastic 2017… let’s hope to leave all the bad things behind with 2016

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  2. I hope the new year brings you more energy. I am hoping the same for me. Maybe it’s something in the air right now. As far as your
    Goals, I am right there with you. I too would love to make something with my writing and do more public speaking about writing. I have strong faith and drive though. May all your dreams come true Megan. 🙂

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  3. I’m also having some trouble getting new words on paper. Just a couple months ago I was being super productive. I know it’s related to stress and depression. We’ll push through and get back to it. The hard part is not beating yourself up about it. Maybe consciously take a break? Set an end date of sort for it?

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    1. Isn’t it funny how sometimes you’re galloping along and other times you can’t even get the horse to budge? The creative mind is so strange.

      I hope things get better for you. Take care of yourself, and thank you!

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  4. Stay positive, Megan. And remember that it’s okay to have a rest when needed. You don’t need to fight all the time. Sometimes being kind to yourself and just living in the moment makes other, tougher things seem more manageable after a while. One thing at a time. Take good care.

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  5. I’ve definitely been drained and unfocused. This is a hard month to concentrate on work, especially after NaNo!

    But congrats on the promotion. I don’t think your dream is farfetched at all. I know tons of full-time writers, and they didn’t need major bestsellers to get them there, either. It can be done.

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  6. Congrats on the new promotion! Sorry it’s leaving you drained. I’ve been there and felt the same way. Want to write, but don’t have the energy or mindset to do it then feel like crap for not doing it. A terrible, sad situation to be stuck in. 2017 is a new year, new plans/goals to be made. Hopefully you can start with finding one day, for just 30 min to an hour where you can have that time to refocus and write. Baby steps to get you where you want to go.

    Best of luck with your 5 year plan. 🙂

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  7. Hi Megan. I’m in the same boat. Got a different job at work and it’s been a change that I’ve struggled to incorporate into my writing life. It’s getting better, but I still “lame” out on some stuff because of the change.This is a tough time of year to stay focused on writing, but hang in there. As far as your “career,” it’s possible. This is the first year in five that I might make a profit from my writing. Certainly not paying any bills, but at least it looks like it’s affording itself. So hang in there, relax and enjoy the holiday season. The words will come!

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    1. It’s comforting to know other writers go through the same thing! Having a huge upheaval in your life can make it really hard to concentrate on writing. Congratulations on turning a profit! It’s a slow business, but it’s definitely worth it.

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  8. Amazing goals – I’m sure you’ll get there. As for feeling drained: take a day off from everything (eat ice-cream, lounge at the pool – or whatever works in your current climate 😉 ). Just like turning a computer off and on again, our brains sometimes need to reset. All the best for your writing endeavours.

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  9. Keep hanging in there, Meagan. You will reach your goal to do that which you love. Right now, you are going through a phase. Drink a glass of wine, read a book you have always wanted to read and accept that you’re going through the phase that will pan over.
    All the best.
    Shalom aleichem,
    Pat G

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