It Was a Dark and Bloody Night

This post is part of the Insecure Writer’s Support Group blog hop. The first Wednesday of every month is Insecure Writer’s Support Group day. Post your thoughts on your own blog. Talk about your doubts and the fears you have conquered. Discuss your struggles and triumphs. Offer a word of encouragement for others who are struggling. The awesome co-hosts for the August 3 posting of the IWSG will be Tamara Narayan, Tonja Drecker, Ellen @ The Cynical Sailor, Lauren @ Pensuasion, Stephen Tremp, and Julie Flanders!

AUGUST 3RD QUESTION: What was your very first piece of writing as an aspiring writer? Where is it now? Collecting dust or has it been published?

I had to really think about the answer to the first part of this question, and once it came to me, the second part of the question made me laugh. No, it’s definitely not published. But amazingly, I still have it.

I started writing my freshman year in high school. I was 14 at the time, if I remember correctly. I wanted to write horror like Stephen King, as I was a dark and morbid sort of teenager who loved horror movies and anything bleak and deep, like I imagined my soul to be. I wrote it in a spiral-bound notebook and I couldn’t tell you now what sparked the idea, or what the ‘plot,’ if there was a coherent one, was supposed to look like. I know that the characters were all thinly-veiled versions of my friends and boyfriend at the time, and that it was set in my small hometown, and there was a lot of blood and demonic possession. You always think you’re not going to grow up and shake your head at your younger self, that you’ll think you have it together throughout your entire life, but I certainly know different.

I still have the notebook, but I haven’t looked at it in years. I wrote it in pencil, so it’s probably faded to almost illegibility (I’m 41 now, the reverse numbers). Hilariously, I remember that my best friend was reading it as I wrote it (I cringe now at the idea of anyone reading my first draft) and she was eating a red popsicle at some point and got splatters on one of the pages, which I thought was cool cause, blood. She put a bit of it on her fingertip and traced red popsicle over the word ‘blood’ on one of the pages, as well.

I wish I was making any of this up.

I can laugh at my teenage self now, and at the terrible writing in that red notebook (of course it was red!) but it was the start of where I am today, all these years later. If I hadn’t been so melodramatic then, I wouldn’t be writing today, perhaps. We all have to start somewhere. Luckily at that age, I also had a lot of encouragement from my friends and peers, so I continued writing well into adulthood and sanity. Thank you, dumb teenage me.

Blood.

30 thoughts on “It Was a Dark and Bloody Night

  1. That’s awesome that you still have it, fake blood and all! You do have to start somewhere, and as a melodramatic teen, what else but horror!
    Mary at Play off the Page

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    1. Hahaha indeed! I need to find some way to preserve it before the pencil fades. Thanks for stopping by!

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  2. Your friend added popsicle blood – too funny. Hey, we all start somewhere. My space battles were anything but epic back then.

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    1. Indeed! Better to start silly than never start at all!

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  3. Oh, teenage angst! My friends and I tried to write songs when we were about 13, 14. They were more like plagiarized bad poetry. That popsicle story is awesome and hilarious.

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    1. Isn’t it great, when we were young and so creative? I guess we all have to start somewhere!

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  4. Ha! Love it. If you ever decide the horror is back you’ve got yourself a marketing plan. hehehe.

    Anna from elements of emaginette

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    1. LOL yes indeed! I’ll tie it into the popsicle industry…

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  5. They say that the one thing authors wish they could re-capture is the drive they experienced as naive, young writers.
    I bet the “dumb” confidence/melodrama didn’t allow for lack of inspiration and the dreaded “writer’s block”? Do young writers ever experience writers block? I don’t think so… 🙂
    Happy IWSG Day!

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    1. That’s a very good point! If only we could find a happy medium. That confidence when we thought “I’m the best writer that’s ever written!” mixed with some of our common sense and experience we have now.

      Thanks for stopping by!

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  6. mlouisebarbourfundyblue August 3, 2016 — 12:15 PM

    Loved this post with all its teenaged angst and brave beginnings! I’m mortified when I go back and look at my teenaged journals and scribbles! Thanks for sharing your beginning as a writer.

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    1. Oh I’m definitely mortified, trust me! Thank you!

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  7. That’s actually a great beginning. I love the interactivity with your friend. That’s a lot to live up to as you get back to writing!

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    1. I wonder if she even remembers that? We were such morbid teenagers!

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  8. That was very brave as a teenager to let someone else read it. I loved horror as a teenager but was cured of that once I had to live on my own. Too chicken.

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    1. Haha! I’m still into it, but I channeled it into writing paranormal romance now! I don’t think I could ever completely give up the spooky stuff.

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  9. What fun you must have had writing those stories. To be free and write what we want, to let the stories flow. It would be great to recapture those feelings. Thanks for sharing your story.

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    1. Yes! And I was so full of self-confidence then, even though it was terrible. Funny how that works, isn’t it?

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  10. Not so dumb, if you ask me, look at the woman and writer you are today. Our choices shape us, even our teenage ones, Nice memory.
    Juneta @ Writer’s Gambit

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    1. Thank you! That’s a great way to look at it.

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  11. LOL! My best friend and I did much of the same in late elementary school. She even tried to borrow a few of my characters when we were in high school. Not cool. Definitely not cool.

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    1. Oh gosh, it’s so funny how we got started so early, isn’t it? I take it by ‘borrow’ you don’t mean with permission. Boo to that!

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  12. I wrote my series from when I was a kid in spiral notebooks, too. And I also have all of those original notebooks. 🙂 That Popsicle part made me laugh. What are best friends for, huh? lol

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    1. Yes! At least she was ‘supporting’ me. I haven’t talked to her since high school, I wonder if she’d even remember it now?

      Spiral notebooks are the best!

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  13. Cute post! As you mentioned, it was the start of a really great passion. Maybe someday you might take pieces of it and turn it into something great in the future. 🙂

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    1. I guess if I’m going to, I need to find it before the pencil fades! Thank you!

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  14. What a brilliant story! I love that your friend wrote the word “blood” in red popsicle drippings. I think your teenage self sounds like she was a very creative young woman 🙂

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    1. ‘A very creative young woman’ is a much better way of saying it. 😉 It’s such a hilarious story, looking back on it. We all have to start somewhere, right?

      Thank you!

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  15. Neat story, Megan. A positive out of all of that was that you knew you wanted to write and another positive is that you did write. Even though the story is something you would not publish today, you finished a manuscript.
    Shalom aleichem,
    Patricia

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    1. That’s a great way to look at it! Even if it was silly writing, at least I was WRITING. Thank you!

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