Yay, I did it! Oh no, I DID IT…

IWSG badgeThis post is part of the Insecure Writer’s Support Group blog hop. The first Wednesday of every month is Insecure Writer’s Support Group day. Post your thoughts on your own blog. Talk about your doubts and the fears you have conquered. Discuss your struggles and triumphs. Offer a word of encouragement for others who are struggling. The awesome co-hosts for the March 4 posting of the IWSG will be Chemist Ken, Suzanne Sapseed, and Shannon Lawrence!

Yesterday was the release of my first urban fantasy novel, The Wicked City, from Kensington Publishing! An exciting day for sure, one I’ve been looking forward to for a long time. I can’t believe it’s finally here. So all my insecurities have vanished, right?

Ha! Not even close!

Here’s my shiny new book:

The Wicked City – Siren Song #1

She’s got a voice to die for…

Whatever June Coffin says, goes—literally. And it’s not just because she’s a chain smoking rebel. As a Siren, June has the ability to force people to obey any command she voices. But in a world where those with supernatural powers quickly become lab rats for science, she’d rather look out for herself than fight on the front lines…until her similarly gifted twin brother, Jason, is captured by Chicago’s Institute of Supernatural Research.

To save Jason, June has no choice but to enter a hidden world of conspiracy, murder—and strange bedfellows—including a widowed paranormal advocate whose memory June accidentally erased, and a fiery paranormal separatist leader. Soon the lines between attraction and strategic alliance become blurred. But in a city exploding with paranormal crossfire, and her brother’s life at stake, June will have to face her inner demons and finally take a stand.

Read the first chapter | Read Reviews

Purchase at:

Kensington | Amazon | Barnes & Noble | Kobo | All Romance Ebooks

(Additionally, I’m running a contest to win an e-book copy, if you’d like to enter.)

Beautiful, isn’t she? And certainly I’m celebrating. But, but, but…

What if people hate it? What if it gets bad reviews? What if I barely sell any copies and my publisher drops me from the rest of my contract for wasting their time? What if readers come to my house and stab my eyes out with forks for writing something so lame?

Getting the big publication doesn’t automatically mean all your anxiety and self-doubt vanishes. It’s kind of like being in love, where one minute you’re on top of the world and the next you worry the other person secretly hates you and is just leading you on. Maybe my publisher and the readers are just humoring me. But look, I have a book! I’m published, I did it! But oh God, what if they hate me?!

So it goes. That’s not to say there’s not a great feeling of joy and accomplishment in my heart, but this blog hop IS about insecurities, and there they are.

I’m going to try to bask in the glow, instead.

42 comments

  1. Hi Megan! I love the siren concept and your eye-catching cover. The plot sounds so exciting. Congratulations! Bask in your triumph and when fears creep up, remind them just how awesome you are, what you made, and of all the people out there (like you) who were just waiting for this story to come into the world. Without you, they would never be able to read it. You’re doing a service to humanity, and don’t you forget it! 😉

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  2. Congratulations on the book. It sounds interesting and I’m off to add it to my wish list to get later (or now. Who can resist $2.99?) I’m not sure your fear will ever go away. I know with each of my books I wonder if this is it? The one before was fluke and I’m really a crappy writer. You have to keep pushing on though. Trust yourself a little.

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  3. Congratulations on a published book. I guess there will always be a reason to have doubts even if, for a moment you can bask in the glory of actually being in print. If the book is as good as the brief description, I have a feeling it will do well. I really love the concept!

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  4. With publishers, they aren’t humoring you – it’s all about the money.
    Congratulations on your release! Is this your first?
    Don’t sweat the sales or reviews. Just do what you can and worry about what you can control. And rest assured, no one will show up at your house to stab you in the eyes with a fork.

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  5. Oh, congrats on your release! And I hear you on feeling insecure at that point… it’s like you’ve been rehearsing but now it’s showtime and people will SEE what you’ve done. It sounds like a great story though–best of luck to you!

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  6. I think I have some of the same anxieties you have. The closer I get to finishing my book, the more freaked out I become. It’s like I have a fear of success, if that makes any sense.

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  7. Hey, even if some of your readers hate you, that’s still better than them being bored by you. Congratulations on publishing your first book. I’m sure you’ll have many more to come.

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  8. Enjoy! Give yourself a big pat on the back and take a bow for your accomplishment! I’m working on my third book, and the insecurity never leaves (not me, anyway). But we keep on going…best of luck to you!

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  9. I’ve learned one very important thing on this journey. There will always be someone who hates what you wrote. Just expect it. The important thing to remember is that if they hated it, you didn’t write it for them. Let it roll off and focus on those people who enjoyed the book. They were your audience from the beginning and they are the only ones that count.

    Good luck with the release!

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  10. Huge congratulations on the release and the contract. That self doubt will never go away, even the top, best-selling authors in the world suffer from the exact same insecurities. Just remember, whenever the self doubt hits, remind yourself that you are a published author, and then do a crazy happy dance. That usually works for me.

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  11. Yes, enjoy the glow! Congratulations on your new release. You know, I never worried about readers coming to my house with forks. Something else to worry about. LOL The thing to ask yourself is did you enjoy writing this book. If yes, then readers will, too. And remember you can’t please everyone. Enjoy the journey!

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  12. First off, congrats! The book looks and sounds awesome! Secondly, I hear ya. I’m going indie, not trad, but the same thoughts are whipping through my head as I approach release day–what if I’ve made a HUGE mistake? But I think we need to take solace in that we are doing what we love. The work is out there, and I am sure, way more people than not, will love your book. You have an awesome bookbaby! Go out an celebrate!

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